Baby you're a firework;

for you, AH.

three in the morning;

ain't it true?

because HE is YOU;

you will always be my favorite.

even painkiller can't heal me;

my mum said this "TERASA SUNYI DI RUMAH SEKARANG NI".

doesn't this break your heart?

hey people. it's been a long time i'm not post any entry with words. sometimes i'm really out of blogging mode but still want to post for you. so i just pick any picture that bring meaning to me, or you. ok, us.

i'm sorry because there are a lot of grammatical error in this entry. i just finished my study group for Energetic In Chemistry. i'll be sitting this paper tomorrow at 2.30pm-5.00pm. this paper is the most to kill me. see now? the English is bad but i still want to type in English.

back to the BOLD up there. yeah, my mum said that. it really breaks my heart. fyi, my lil sis just fly to UiTM Kuantan to futher her study in Law Foundation. before, she was never been away from home and now she is the one that study far from home. not really far, huh?

i left home when i'm 18. i study at IPG Kampus Kent until now. my course started on July 2007 untilNovember 2012. insyaallah next year is my final.

and then, my sis Bibi followed me. she left home also at 18 to IPG Kampus Keningau. the campus is not far from home but still, she have to stay at hostel. which means that HOME is only at weekend. so 2 people are not in HOME.

a few days ago, Kak Cik also left home at 18. and guess what, my mum now with the boys. Daus, 16 years old and little KJ, 4 years. i know u can spot the different now. 2 boys at home, mum and dad. no gossiping, no laughing and no watching television together. this doesn't mean that Daus is not accompanying my mum. but you just can feel the difference when one by one left home. am i right?

when my mum said that word, it really broke my heart. so then i text my sis Bibi. we feel sad for mum. this means that we should go back HOME as frequent as we can.

when this thing happen, i just realize that everyone was grown up. time flies incredibly fast. 5 days more, and i'll be back HOME.

i miss u, mum.

bila larut malam;

In the end,

we only regret the chances we didn't take,

relationships we were afraid to have,

and the decisions we waited too long to make.

bercawan cawan air mata dah tak ada erti.

lagipun dah tak ada masa nak paksa air mata keluar.

finally we deal with it.

i swear i'm getting better.

way back to love;

i really couldn't find my way.

i know you gonna find your way back to me.

FIND ME.

STAY;

down down down;

TEMPORARILY DOWN.

missing in action.

YES.

i just couldn't find you.

i just couldn't contact you.

i just couldn't detect you.

Which part of the world you are right now?

expect the unexpected;

entri terakhir pada 14 Februari. sekarang dah nak masuk 20 Februari.

ok, mari membaca post antara 19 Februari dan 20 Februari.

komitmen terhadap mukabuku dan blog telah tergendala buat beberapa ketika dek kerana menjalankan tanggungjawab dalam menguruskan Kejohanan Olahraga Tahunan IPG Kampus Kent ke-58. tahun ni batch saya diberi kepercayaan untuk menjadi pengelola bersama.

setakat ini, amanah yang telah diberikan telah saya tunaikan sehabis baik. mungkin saya bukanlah seorang ketua dan pemimpin yang baik. masih banyak ruang yang perlu saya perbetulkan selepas mengenalpasti point-point kelemahan sepanjang KOT ini. secara rasminya, KOT akan berakhir pada hari isnin, yang mana masih ada 6 acara yang belum berlangsung.

eh, kenapa nada macam serius?

KOT kali ni, performance saya sangat lah diluar jangkaan; unexpected. performance sangat luar biasa untuk beberapa acara. terutamanya untuk acara-acara yang baru saya sertai. Rekod peribadi lompat kijang setakat ini mencapai 9.03 m. fyi, acara ini baru saya sertai pada tahun 2008. setiap tahun ada peningkatan jarak. tapi tak expect lah boleh sampai 9 meter lebih. saya sendiri pun agak hairan dan terkejut, padahal tak ada latihan pun. lagi lagi busy uruskan KOT ni.

lagi satu, lompat jauh. sempat juga nama saya terukir sebagai pemegang rekod di IPG Kent. rekod lama, 4.28m telah saya perbaharui dengan jarak 4.33m. acara ini pun merupakan acara yang baru saya sertai. sangat tak sangka bila jarak lompatan saya boleh mencapai 4 meter. syukur sangat sangat.

Jumaat, hari pertama kejohanan saya bawa balim dua pingat emas. Lompat Kijang dan 100 m Hurdles. setelah 5 tahun tak join hurdles, KOT kali ini saya cabar diri sendiri untuk join kembali. dan akhirnya, saya masih mampu beraksi dengan baik dan mendapat emas. puan mama pun agak terkejut bila saya bagitahu yang emas itu milik saya. :'(

teringat zaman-zaman kegemilangan waktu sukan sekolah sekolah dulu. RINDU

harikedua kejohanan, 2 emas lagi yang mampu saya bawa balik. misi mengumpul 4 emas tercapai. alhamdulillah. emas untuk Lompat jauh dengan rekod baru kejohanan dan emas untuk kuartet 4x100m.

rupanya, pertambahan umur tak menandakan yang performance tak akan meningkat.

konfiden itu penting.

salam and respect;

blue is beauty;

i don't know what to write last night. so i didn't. but now i know what. HAHAHA

OK people, remember the 30 days drawing challenge? i'll start it tomorrow, so wait for my devastating drawing everyday.

officially the CNY holiday end today. tomorrow is Monday and i never had a Monday Blues. ever. in my own opinion, everyday is a great day. so let's have a great day everyday.

oh, here's something to let you know. i found that this year i am into BLUE. blue color :P everything in blue color will caught my eyes first. including the blue eyes people. HAHAHA

that's all, thank you.

i should be doing my homework now;

me;

love with o regrets;

people that are meant to be together always

find each other in the end.

please, come home baby.

say it, and i'm yours.

weheartit

live with no excuses;

COMBO;

tak pernah pernah rumah ni tak ada kucing. sejak kucings kucings mati secara combo cuti last year, sampai sekarang tak ada kucing lagi.

gila kau kucing mati secara combo. kau pernah? dahsyat kan perasaan bila 5 ekor mati dalam masa beberapa hari? COMBO lah sangat.

terdera taw, terdera.

part lebih menyedihkan bila menyaksikan kucing hitam yang the only one tu mati slow slow depan mata aku. bergenang ayaq mata taw.

redha aje la.

makanya, gambar kucing pun jadi wallpaper desktop kat rumah. so kucing kucing yang kat hostel pun aku belai belai. selalunya kalau kucing tu lalu, aku belai sekejap. tapi lepas kisah COMBO tu aku belai lama sikit dari kebiasaan.

tadi gugel gugel gambar kucing. nah, ambil lah seekor dua buat peluk malam malam.

somewhere i belong;

do you know where is the best place for me?

no, not beach.

AIRPORT. yes, airport.

u can feel the emotions there. 2 emotion in 1 place.

arrival and departure of emotion.

someone, take me there.

hugs;

sekejap saja;

nak jadi blogger yang mahsyur tak perlu la tiap tiap sejam nak update belog kan? kalau entri pun macam takde hal tapi update 10 kali sehari tak ada pekdah juga. *eh kenapa tiba tiba emo ni?*

tiba tiba. ok jangan layan beliau.

ni sekejap je, gambar dicedok dari blog encik kembar, tak marah kan? tak marah kan? teheeeee. klik untuk tumbesaran yang agak berpada pada.

eh, bukan yang ni la. ini boifren ai.

hah, yang ni la. anda rasa apa? MUHASABAH diri ramai ramai. #MacamTerasa

yang mencedok gambar;

ada kisah yang terbuku;

sekarang dah 3.30am.

tak boleh tidur.

tiba tiba nak kata ini. I bukan random girl. I'm different. so please. respect i. thanks.

hmm entah. don't ask me why. i memang macam ni, time time mata tak boleh lelap tu la banyak betul benda benda pelik yang bermain di fikiran. so bagi all out lah kan.

yes people, pagi nanti ada lembu nak disembelih. fyi, i still kat kampus i. tak dibenarkan balik lagi. tapi a few of friends dah balik. and i tak nak cari masalh, so better duduk sini je kan.

oh ya, btw i baru lepas tengok SALT. memang power gila la Angelina Jolie kat situ. paling i respect kebolehan dia dalam muvee tu.

and sekarang i tak tahu nak buat apa lagi. rasa macam nak balik rumah je. barang barang dah 70% done packing. so ada a few lagi la.

tiba tiba ada perasaan nak away dari sini. pergi je la mana mana. then suddenly teringat KL. oh god, nak pergi KL lagi. u know what, tak kisah laa u pergi mana mana. asalkan tempat tu tak ada siapa siapa yang kenal you. that is what i did time pergi KL April lalu. petang tu i go for a walk at Jalan TAR. i memang totally alone, tak ada siapa siapa accompany i time tu. sengaja. i go walk, tengok tengok orang, masuk keluar kedai. then time tu i sangat merasakan yang i sangat bersendirian. that is why kadang kadang i go anywhere myself. sebab sometimes kita akan rasa kita perlu rasa sendirian. kan? u did that? i did it.

Thank you Allah for all I have today. Alhamdullilah.

ah, btw, i am single lady. don't ask me why; again.

have faith;

teaser;

mesti kau tensen kan aku sekejap sekejap update blog.

kau tak nak baca boleh tekan X di penjuru atas sebelah kanan sekarang.

kadang kadang aku fikir kau dan aku sama bodoh. dulu aku pernah menangis bersama untuk kesedihan kau. tapi bila kau gembira kenapa kau tak pandang aku walau hanya sebelah mata?

sedapkan hati tengok gambar gambar wedding.

hati kita berbeza;

posto posto;

aha, update lagi.

malam ni memang malam mendapat inspirasi eh?

almost semua benda hari ini sangat inspiring.

lagu lagu ni pun semua inspiring.

nah, ambek ni sikit.

Love is crazy
Pretty baby
Take it real slow
My feelings show
All you have to do
Is never ever let it go
My feelings show

And I want you to know

colbie cailat - feelings show.

malam ni layan Colbie Cailat.

layan.

p/s: buat buat tak layan pada encik migrain yang datang bertandang. ikut suka dia je nak datang. tak suka kau la encik migrain. and rasanya i have to take a new medicine to cure. ubat yang selalu makan tu dah tak memberi kesan. ohmaijee.

ok, selamat malam.

yang benar;

5-4=1

yeah, done well for past 4 papers. 4 down, 1 to go.

coming paper is my minor, Principles of English Language Teaching.

tonite, i have a little bit 'malas'. so maybe just study a little bit to refresh and to ready to 'slurp' all the theories. and this semester i've got 3 papers for theoritical@pedagogy skills.

i'm looking forward to 2011! i think i have so many things ti do and to start on 2011. ;)

by the way people, click here. a grand promotion from AirAsia. grab it now! i am so interested because i'm a kind that love travelling. but until now, i don't choose where to fly, when and with whom.

Tempoh Menempah	:	9 November 2010 - 14 November 2010
Tempoh Penerbangan	:	1 Julai 2011 - 10 November 2011

here's something to tell you. i have 4 days to waste after 15hb Nov. we only can go back home at 20hb. that's bad. any plan to fill the days?

The Aidiladha will be here with me. first time celebrating without family. :(

so, that's all people. have a good day :)

garis mula ini agak invisible;

boleh percaya tak statement 'time will heal everything'?

selalu dengar. selalu jadi kat kau bai? bak satu bukti.

malam ni study tak sekonsentret malam malam sebelum ini.

proven sangat la kalau ada benda yang mengganggu fikiran kita, kita tak dapat fokus on something.

tapi macamana boleh timbul pepatah 'menyelam sambil minum air' eh?

(tengah berusaha untuk fokus study. esok paper pukul 2.30pm. wish me luck)