June..

im going home today.
i'll leave everything that left behind.
all those things that mess me up, dont ever come back to me.
the love that i lost, let it go away.
i know, there's no point for us to get together.
i dont love u!
the friendship relation thats seems to be broken, let it broke.
i never think that i would repair it.
they are the first to broke it, n i'm just an audience.
to see it broke, i will.
u never know how hard is it to face all this FUCKING situation.
people that close to me hurt me a lot.
and June, im waiting for you to start a new life, again. and again.

once i did so, things look different;

where should we start?
pity..

exam was over

huhuh, abih dah paper exam aku.
lega la gak..
n now, lepak2 kat hostel je pon..
sesi menonton wayang tengah berlangsung..
gni la rutin bdk2 maktab ni, abis paper trus tgk muvie.
best, n ndk lama lagi cuti sem.
i'll go back to my hometown on 30th.
but then, ada lagi tugas yg blum slesai d sini.
i'll join a team for persembahan puisi on Hari guru ni.
tomorrow oso ada keja, wat review tuk laporan sukaneka Hari Guru d buletin maktab..
kikiki..
write soon..

lawak yang teramat

hahaha, lucu ya..

'Kanak-kanak tidak boleh lagi bermain layang-layang,
Kupu-kupu tidak boleh lagi berterbangan,
Hahahah, agak lawak di situ ya..'

radhi @ Poo Jie at Antoo Fighter. hahaha..

almost full

i can surf the waves of life-and if i tumbled now and again, so what? people might say that i always fall on my feet-but this is because i've got my eyes open for the next good oppurtunity. Sure, things can go wrong, but i have optimism in buckets. Shine on someone who's down and get them back on their feet-i'll feel great, too.

miss u guys!

yeah, here are Wieng, Benn, Min and Alex. They act like real kan? huhuhu..



hahaha, this sweeties are Wiwi, Ckgu Ain and Khy. debaters geng!



and this is my 'twin'!

what-so-ever

i got it from anonymous blog. i dont know whether this is mean to me or not. Perhaps..

when a girl is mean to you after a break-up
she wants you back but she is too
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever!

When u break a girl's heart
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later.

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her
mind..

ketika cinta

ketika cinta memanggil, aku rela melepaskannya jauh dari ku..

penipuan ke-2 Wyllcanstan Willis

hahahaha, i forgot to post about this. it happens yesterday, if i'm not mistaken. c Wyll msg lagi n he say 'kak ngah, ada sy mau kastaw ko ni. tapi hari selasa la ah'.. hahahaha, ndk dilayan sda msg dia ni kali. cuz i know, mesti dia mau tipu lagi tu. hahaha, baru ko tau Wyll! tapi wait and see la apa lagi kezutan dia on Tuesday ya!

deleting

in progress

its over and it's not destroying me though!

i prefer to take this decision rather than to walk together in an acidic rain. u got what i mean? thanx dude!

ada cinta di hatinya

Huhuuh, ni gambar time umur around 3 years old i thnk..

the, we go to time sekolah. badly, tiada la gambar2 time skolah rendah dlm laptop ni. blum rephoto lagi. nanti la ah.. k, below are my picts time skola menengah. huhuhu, jgn ketawa2 ah tingu ni gambar..


this pict was taken by myself during my sis wedding on 2007 ( i thought la)



and ni gambar2 time d sekolah. masa paling jajal@nakal. zaman batu mengkali geng kami time ni.. this was taken time form 3. i proud to be Pluto Girls taw time tu..



and this is time form 5. 5 delta yang paling manang.. hahaha, zaman ni la zaman Renaissance budak2 Sains. hahahah... ni time raya terbuka d skul.



n this is my pebret pict time skolah yg gilang gemilang dolu2 tu.. hahaha..

I GOT IT FROM ANONYMOUS BLOG. I JUST COPY AND PASTE IT. HEHE
Try your name in Japanese
DON'T SPOIL THE FUN... PASS IT ON.. PLEASE...
(biarpun nama aku suda jepun = TOMOKO, aku tetap mau try gak)

A - ka
B- tu
C- mi
D - te
E - ku
F - lu
G - ji
H - ri
I - ki
J - zu
K - me
L - ta
M - rin
N - to
O -mo
P - no
Q - ke
R - shi
S - ari
T -chi
U - do
V - ru
W -mei
X - na
Y - fu
Z - zi

So, keputusannya;

N.O.R.S.I.M.A.H A.T.I.Q.A.H
tomoshiarikirinkari kachikikekari
(astapirulah.. anak siapa la ni punya nama. klu gni la, panjang la nametag aku, 10cm mgkali. hahahahaha)

hari ini adalah hari yang merepek

aku berjaya menghabiskan UAK TITAS sebentar tadi. di pertengahan jalan, aku menyedari bahawa hari ini merupakan hari yang merepek bagi aku. aku banyak betul merepek di bahagian essay TITAS tadi. sehinggalah keluar kesusasteraan sains.
antaranya ialah;

1. Penipisan ozon : pada siapa harus dipersalahkan masalah ini? adakah salah kegagalan lapisan ozon yang gagal mengembalikan sinar ultraungu ke lapisan atmosfera bumi? (betul ka fakta aku ni?)

2. Pencemaran udara : haruskah dipersalahkan pada molekul-molekul oksigen yang gagal mempertahankan ikatannya dengan molekul hidrogen?

mampukah cikgu Rajit memahami maksud tersirat aku ni? hahaha, aku sudah buat yg terbaik!

kau buat degup jantung aku semakin laju

huhuhuhu, kisah ini bertajuk 'penipuan c wyll yg sempurna'

latar masa : lima hari
latar tempat : aku di tuaran, wyll di labuan
latar belakang penipu : Football player skuad skul aku merangkap klasmate Farah, merangkap among my good fren yang nakal seperti aku. dan memang tebiat dia begini.

kisah bermula...

di malam ahad yang hening, aku menerima panggilan telefon dari seorang sahabat. nama WYLL tertera di skrin telefon nokia aku yang ada bling2. tanpa ucapan salam..
WYLL : Kak ngah, ada saya mau kasitaw ko sesuatu ni. penting sangat.
AKU : (dengan nada tkezut dan ingin tahu) hah? apa tu? (dug dag berulang kali)
WYLL : tapi bukan sekarang, khamis nnt sy bagtau.
AKU : e, ndak blh, mesti hari ni juga. ndk boleh, ndk boleh!
WYLL : msti khamis juga kak ngah. khamis la ah.

setelah penat merayu yang akhirnya tidak berjaya, dia mengakhiri perbualan. tinggallah aku terkapai2 menanti hari khamis dengan penuh saspennya. aku memang masak dgn perangai c Wyll ni, dan aku seperti dpt mghidu penipuannya. tapi entah mengapa aku mengenapikan rasa itu dan percaya bahawa khamis bakal memberi aku jawapan tersebut. aku melalui hari-hariku dengan perasaan saspen dan inkkuiri yang tinggi terhadap panggilan telefonnya. Khamis tiba..

aku mghntar SMS kepada Wyll. (time tu jam 1.20am rasanya) namun, tiada balasan. aku terus tertanya2. paginya, aku menerima SMS dari Wyll. dengan perasaan kelam kabut, aku terus membaca kandungan mesej tersebut. alangkah pilu hatiku, penantianku tiadalah membawa kebaikan..

'kak ngah, khamis sda kn hari ni. x sangka kita tlh mghabiskan sekolah menengah kan? kita juga dpt kenal. sebenarnya, ini lah yg sy mau bagitau. haha'

apakah perasaan anda setelah membaca msj ini? rasa tertipu memenuhi ruang angkasa bilikki yang hening di pagi hari. aku ditipu hidup2 oleh kau, Wyll. ciss, bukan April Fool pun bleh kena mcm ni ka? apalah motif sebenar ni?

exam is around the corner

hi there!
its been a long time i'm not posting here. (2 days are too long for me)
by the way, im telling you that my exam schedule are here;
20th May - FPM
21st May - PKK
25th May - LP
26th May - CLS

meaning that, this blog will be 'idle'.
Break for a while *wink
so, do miss me!
i'll be back blogging after i leave the exam hall on 26th May!
promise!
do take care for urself!

deep in my heart

Another Mother's Day is here,
Bringing joy and pleasures new,
On this special day, Mother dear,
I want to remember you.
I cannot give you costly gifts,
And I've told you this before,
No matter what I give to you,
You give back much, much more.
I'm giving you a pure, sweet rose,
Gathered in the early morn,
This rose you planted in my heart,
The day that I was born.
In kindly, loving thoughts of you,
And with the faith you still impart,
The rose I give to you today,
Is the love that's in my heart.
i love u mum.

sesi tukar layout telah berjaya!

yes! yes!
sesi menukar layout telah berjaya.
selain tu, sesi tutorial mbuat blog kepada baimeigui juga telah berjaya.
n now, she have a blog. (check it out, guys)
hahahaha...

aku rasa bahagia

u know why?
aku rasa bahagia bila baca blog2 those who walks beside me..
bahagia sangat.

wireless!!

Finally, wireless beroperasi di seluruh Kent.
so, broadband pun ndk bertugas lagi when i am kat class.
tapi, bill tetap jalan. hahaha..
agak lucu di situ kan?

better go!

now!
sleep moko! 2am oledi ni.. aiyaaaa, internet ah, bikin aku serba salah ja, mau surf td skg jam brpa sda ni.. rasanya aku sorang lg yg blum zZzZ ni.. ok2, (jeling2 katil dlu). ok, time to sleep. forget what happen yang kemarin2, tomorrow is a new day. yeah tomorrow is friday.. i love friday cuz ada tutorial peribadi.. hehehe, first time la rasanya aku suka tutorial peribadi. sleep3!

aku mohon

Ya Allah…
Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan dia akan menjadi teman menapaki hidup...
Satukanlah hatinya dgn hatiku...
Tetapi ya Allah…
Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan…
Dia bukan milikku...
Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku...
Luputkanlah ia dari igtanku..
Ambillah kebahagiaan ketika dia ada disisiku..
Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan..
Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yg Maha Mengerti…
Berikanlah aku kekuatan..
Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit..
Hilang bersama senja nan merah..
Agarku bisa berbahagia walaupun tanpa bersama dgnnya..

taken from anum jamilah's blog

i'm not perfect

yup, i am the lady (should i called myself a girl?)
she is a good girl instead of naughty girl
she is a evil inside the angel
she is a sensitive inside of rox attitude
she is an ugly instead of beauty (hahaha, not at all)
she is a lady instead of 'boyish' (obviously)
she is a pretender instead of look 'i'm okay'
she is a lazy one instead of hardworking
she is Atiqah instead of Tomoko..

freak

argh..
i hate this situation..
tengah best2 layan lagu seindah biasa, then suddenly i heard..
heard what? guess what..
hahaha, i heard bunyi kapal terbang up there, n i thing i'm flying with the aeroplane.
oh, how i miss u dear!
it brings me to this strange feeling and situation.
sob3, this feeling drive me crazy.
k, gotta go to usrah after solat.
write soon.

tomoko loves BAG!

i do very bad things and i do them well

yeah, that is what happening to me right now. i've done 2 bad things for one person today. i train myself to be 'tidak tlalu baik' dgn org. cuz there's no point for them if i do that. sakit hati ja yang aku dapat instead of buat baik. always. its up you maw la cakap apa dgn aku, dats my decision. i only treat them right for a person yang treat me in right way. fair and square kan? so, for those yang rasanya pernah kena dengan my bad things, congratulations! that is what you should get from me. u deserve it, baby. got what i mean?



i train myself to do this because i realize that there's no point if i do that to them. silly. useless and meaningless. to be fair, i have to do the same things to them. so, rasa la apa yang aku rasa. kita sama2 rasa oren ya. sangat adil. sudah terlalu banyak rasa yang aku pendam and diamkan ja. and pretend that i'm okay. asyik2 aku ja yang treat you right, tapi kamu ndk treat me right. hahaha, and now treat me right if you want me to treat you right.

assembly was over

hahaha, sesi kelam kabut telah pun berlalu. we handled the 'perhimpunan bulanan Kent' tadi pagi. boleh2 plak tu x letrik time assembly. tiba2 ja, tp berkat keprofesionalisme-an kami, kami telah berjaya! siap ada majlis pelancaran Buku Mesra Alam Sekitar lagi sempena Hari BUmi taw. perasmian jangan alang2 ah, men kasi pecah ais lagi ba. buku tu dalam ais, ala2 grand gitu.. hehe, btw, thanks to all dearest friends for all this. next time kita handle, kita buat grand2 lagi ya, mana tau bleh kasi lepas belon ka, lepas burung ka, bunga api ka.. kan3?

cup of tea #2

If You Really Love
Something Set It Free.
If It Comes Back It's Yours,
If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be

Love is never lost.
If not reciprocated,
it will flow back
and soften and purify the heart.

If You Love Someone Put Their
Name In A Circle Not A Heart,
A Heart Can Break
But A Circle Goes On Forever

There are 3 great things in this world.
The first thing is for you to love someone.
The second thingis for someone to love you back
and the third greatest thing is for the first
and second thing
to happen at the same time...

Love is like a roller coaster.
Once you have completed the ride,
you want to go again.

Its hard to pretend
you love someone when you don't
but its harder to pretend
that you don't love someone
when you really do.

taken from www.quoteland.com

cup of tea #1

There is love of course.
And then there's life, its enemy.

To love someone
is to understand each other,
to laugh together,
to smile with your heart
and to trust one another.
One important thing is to let
each other go if you can't do this.

Oh! How I miss you so much,
Love is born of faith,
Lives on hope,
And dies of charity

Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.

Love reminds you
that nothing else matters.

Falling in love consists merely in uncorking
the imagination and bottling the common-sense.

Love is more than a feeling;
it's a state of mind.

taken from www.quoteland.com

flu

this girl having flu rite now.
i hate flu!
Go away from me..

age:years:old

i'll spread my wings and i'll learn to fly,
i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky,
make a wish,
take a chance,
make a change,
and break the rules!
i'll take a risk,
take a chance,
make a change and breakaway!

i've done cloning

yeah, thanx God. i have done my presentation. thanx to all my beloved friends and my lecturer, Mr. Chandran for paying attention and accompany. i have the worst english in my presentation. i think i can do better than just now. What the hell with me? i have a slight of regret about my language.. by the way, i've finished the seminar. i hope i can do better in next time.

REJECTED!

ARGH! I HATE ARGUING! I REALLY MEAN IT!
fuh, i hate the phrase 'eh ndk tau la. aku pun bingung'. shitnya aku rasa. aku benci sangat bila cakap banyak, bla..bla..bla.. lpas tu ujung2 'eh ndk tau la, aku pun bingung'. apa la maksud tu? baek ndk payah bagi idea. sudahlah mereject idea org mentah-mentah. i hate the way when the person reject my idea. sometimes i feel a slight of regret to accompany with them. sakit hati lebih ja aku dapat. eeeeeeeeee, geram!

malam yang sepi..pi..pi..

hehehehe, ni bukan lagi malam ni, awal pagi sda. jam 3 lebih sda ni. aku baru jak siap wat keja2 clonning aku. lega. insyaallah (sure sempat) klu sempat, i with my partner, Ash will present on the seminar. i've done the power point and the brochure. im sorry, im not good in 'brochuring'. so, banyak kekurangan dalam brochure tu rasanya. huh, belakang aku pon sakit da. duduk menghadap laptop ja dr petang tadi. jap2, menggeliat dulu aku. huhu, my Haziq oledi slept taaaaaaaaaaaaaaadi lagi. trus, aku pun follow2 juga dia tidur stgh jam. then, i woke up to continue dis kerja2. now, i've done. yeah, better go to sleep now, tomoko! write soon.

i hate it when you are far away from me

in fact, he is totally far away from me. but, when he told me that he will go to Pulau Pangkor for his JPP tasks, if im not mistaken and Besut for Bakti Siswa, i felt that he will be more far away from me. huuuuuu, and next praktikum = Kelantan, he will stand there for a month spending time on the land. this terrible miss gonna attack me. again. Mr. Haziq Husaini, i'm getting forward to meet u soon!

i'll clone you tomorrow!

huhu!
clonning make me sick.
im in trouble to read and understand those words.
pathetic, moko!
okay, calm down.
take a deep breath.
inhale.. exhale..
okay, just do it!
do your work, now!! i mean, now!!
okay, write soon.

yeah, love like this.

this picture was snapped used someone phone camera. i thought its Zharif's phone. clear right? hehe, i love the way we related each other in any situation. if it not happen, then why mdm S***** always remind us dont do report 'berjemaah' or 'same mazhab'.. hehehe, sometimes we ignored it together right. Just do it! differences unite us. love you all!

i found this

hehehe, scrolling2 my little mouse and i found this picture. if not mistaken, im snapped this photo right before 'merentas desa' this early February. this is my girlfriends and classmates. there are a good friends of mine. on you right is vivyan and left is Fazilah.. (hahaha, ambek ko Chin, aku panggil ko Fazilah). Fazilah is my geng samseng in my class or Gengster. she is totally an amazing girl. you know why? figured it yourself. even though she is a kind of 'mereng2' sometimes or i better called it 'something is wrong somewhere' just like me and another samseng lagi, but we're passed the interview and studying here to be a teacher. we are trainee teacher, geng! hahaha, if she is amazing, meaning that i am also amazing. got the idea?

Note : Sorry vyan, i talking too much about Chin here.

DONE

neo - cinderella
sakura - rapunzel
romeo - juliet
6 little fishes, hehe..

which idiot do that kind of things? silly.

To whom it may concern.. Those who broke my girlfriend heart, u'll get back what u've done to her! the world promise u this. if miracle happens, the idiot will read this blog. i'm tellin' you, idiot!

pikir2 jap..

my dear text me just now. he told me that he just bought 6 little mermaid! huhu, 6 ekor ikan la! 3 couple n now i am thinking to give the ikan2 a name..

kent, dgr bunyi tapak kaki aku?

hehehe, i just reach my room at Kent. huhuh, tired and hot!
i just finish drank 100plus n now im chewing bubble gum. aiyaaa, i can feel dat my tooth ada lubang oO. Damn! k, gotta go to laundry room. mau g rendam kain. write soon.

adegan ketinggalan bas

hahahaha, maybe it is my clock fault. or their clock.. or the avanza clock fault.
because antara jam2 tersebut, tiada pun yg accurate. i came to the station bus at 9.57am (my watch), 9.55am (the avanza digital clock).. huhuhu, then nasib baik boleh postpone ticket. thanx to mama kalif. ndk pa, asal jgn panik. nasib ja aku ni ndk panik. then dengan wajah selamba i go to the counter and asked, "bus jam 10 sda jalan ka?" then mama kalif said, "baru juga. ko ketinggalan ka? bah, mari tiket ko, tunda pg jam 11.30" hahaha. LEGA! fuhh!!

then, i walk slowly lepak2 to my x-kedai tmpat aku keja dulu. i still have a good relation to my boss, mr. Ah Fui and Bell. kikikiki, so now, im writing here at FOTO BEST and right now there are a couple with their two children minta repair camera. hehehehe, si Bell berjaya membaikinya.. macam anak bos sda ba si Bell. sda la muka mcm anak cina. kikikiki.. and, they left this photoshop..

finally, i'm home..

yeah, im home at 6 something. across the crocker range, by Bumiputra Exp. its a common journey to get home with a title 'gerakan solo' or 'lone ranger'. sorry for not writing this yesterday. i'm too tired and have no time to online. after i reached home, take bath and go for a family meeting at my grandma home. its a meeting for my cousin, kak bb. she will get married at May 9. the worst thing is me and the whole family are not coming for the function. at 9hb, i' at Kent, and my family are going to Labuan to send my sister, bb (another bb) to KML. she will continue her study journey there for a year.

now is 11.32am and my parents just get home after shopping for a 'kenduri doa selamat' after isyak. meaning that we will bz to prepare the menu. hehehe, its almost 2 years we have no bz-bz like this. the last time this house were bz and kecoh2 on my kak effer wedding 2 years ago. hahaha, after her wed, its my turn. but, it will be a long time lagi la c moko ni mau kawin. she have to finish and graduate first. gettong her job and being a bachelor sampai puas. hehehe, that was the ayat2 yg among my buddy said to me..

aiyaaa, this feeling always punch me when im home. i miss epong, tiqa, benn, man, weing, man, wiwi,rinnie rite now. sometimes, we just can lepak together2 once in a year during hari raya open house at my home. we were so naughty, better dont get us together in KFC again. hahaha, sweet memory there!

k, gotta go to the kitchen. i have a lot to do. write soon, dhaa..